Being sick...

Is not fun...sore throats, runny noses, stomach/body aches and the list goes on. I mean I've been sick the past couple of days and it slowly feels like my body is going numb and you lay in bed in the morning and its like, wow, you don't really know what you feel like anymore. You are so blah feeling that your body is like in limbo or something. But when you get up it just sucks too. Your joints are telling you not to take the steps, not to take notes in class, or really do anything at all. And this is where your lungs chime in and say "Hey! Its getting harder breathe! Cough a couple times, or just stop walking to catch your breath!" I hated that. I'm glad that part is getting a little better but its like I had to stop every couple steps to take a few breaths and cough.

Earlier today I tried taking a nap, that didn't work out all to well. My left eye would get watery and when I coughed my right nostril would just randomly leak. I mean really?? How the heck does that work anyway? I don't get how the body likes to go on random rampages like that, never will I suppose. Oh well...being sick still sucks...

Update!!!

Mmmmk, so three knew baby lambs!! They are sooooooo freaking adorable! The set of twins(both are boys) are sooooo wittle!! The little white one is a big flirt and his brother is so laid back and sweet. The little girl(which is a only child) is kinda off to her self, shes sweet when you get to cuddle with her but after that shes gone wanting mommy! So thats what I've been up to the past couple days. I hope more lambs will be here soon!

Stress kills...

I can feel it eating away at everything. Its slowly starting to break me down to a point I didn't even think was possible...I don't really feel like me anymore. It feels like someone took a hammer and cracked me over the head with it. My head is a slurred mess. I can't sort anything out anymore. I can't say what I want to say and it hurts. Cause no matter what someone will end up telling someone who will find out and it will come back to haunt me. I want to leave. Just pack my things and what little change I have and leave.

Somethings are gonna get settled!

Heck yeah, goal time!!

50lbs gotta go bye bye by late July or Aug. Tips would be nice other than eating healty and running(not advised to do so since I am a twirler). I wanna try to kick my own butt this time around doing it to feel better and to feel more confident about myself. I wanna get back to a healty weight too and hopfully be able to maintain it once I get there. Gonna be hard work but I know I have support from people that I love and I guess all there is to do now is to get 8/9 hours worth of sleep so I can start tomorrow!

I love you Robert Lewis <3

My Music World....

Got to see 'Alakrity' live again tonight!! They rocked, wish I would have gotten to go with a friend to his chuch to see some other hardcore bands rock it out. Maybe next time they come! But yeah, check out their stuff! Maybe I'll post some stuff about tour dates or something.

Just FYI they are more towards the pop rock/punk. They do some amazing old rock songs that kick butt, majorly! I loved seein them again even though they we're tired from the Penn. show they did the night before.

But other than that I love my baby and got to hang out with an amazing gf that I haven't seen in....months! Well needed girl time wiff her. Shes so cool I loves you Kate!!

I love my Fudge Brownie with Multi-Colored Sprinkles!!

Hmmm, what to blog about...

I have no idea what to...oh!! I have a six pack of new nail files that are pink with little white flowers and circles and wavy lines...they are like....amazing...and that was pretty much all of a sentance worth of stuff. Darn. I love my man...soooooooooooooooooooo much he doesn't even know. I bet he doesn't even know that if I could I'd remove my heart and give it to him...would that be crazy?? Cause I love him that much...I really do! I miss him a heck of a lot too. I get to see him this weekend, but thats sooooo far away from now... :( -dislike-

I'ma watch a movie and go to sleep now.... I love you Robert Lewis <3 8/19/10

From the Outskirts...

There once was a place called Outskirts.
In the town of Outskirts a cold wind blew.
No stars at night no sun in the morn'.


Winter is always so cold, sometimes its dry sometimes its wet. But cloud cover and dark scary nights are sometimes all there is. Wind likes to whip around, shuffle the leaves and make weird noises.

Sometimes winter is a nice day where birds fly around and their is a light snow that covers just about everything. Crazy how it can be one thing or another, sometimes both. Wish it would snow some more.

Even if it is cold and snowy winter is always fun. Don't really know why I'm writing all of this. I have no idea at all, maybe just to keep myself sane? Nah. Whatever my reasoning, winter to me is my favorite time...

Are you a virgin?

Uh....wtf? no not what, more like who the fudge? mind asking me to my face rather than over formspring ya loser?

Ask me anything

You are stranded on an island. The island is surrounded by water. You have nothing with you but the clothes on your back. what one person would you want with you?

Rob of course...duh...

Ask me anything

Late Nights and Spanish Homework...

Sigh, I hope class is cancled...This stuff is killing me. I'm tired and I wanna go to sleep but can't cause I wanna get it done...Maybe it will be canceled and I can sleep in tomorrow...please be crappy enough outside so she cancles, pleaseeeee. I hate getting back into things. Oh well, can't wait for art class if they don't cancel.

Yawn, back to work!!

Blah, blah, blah....

Not to sure what to write tonight. Confused kinda blah feeling. Not sure what to do really. Think I might just go to sleep and write another epic wish in the morning at 11:11, cause I can. Fish are doing good. Watching Muppet Treasure Island again...like the fourth time this week...wonder what to wish for...a job? Yeah I'm gonna wish for a job tomorrow...not sure what kind but just a job. I guess thats all...

A Fish of a Different Name...

Sorry I didn't post last night!! Went shopping with my grandmother and we didn't get back to late, plus I was about to fall asleep before I had a chance to write anything. But I went out today with my love and we picked out some new fish for my tank!

I'm starting to get into different kinds now, my newest and most favorite are my Mollies! One is a Dalmatian Lyretail Molly and the other is a Black Sailfin Molly. Both are fun to watch and different than my fast moving friendly Guppies. So I'm excited about them. I still need names though, that would be nice. But untill I find something else to write about I think I might go and take more pictures of them!

Dead Men Tell No Tale...

They really don't do they?

Watched Muppet Treasure Island (haha Is Land) today with my love and I feel like I wanna watch it again. That movie rocks!! Because their "Sailing for adventure on the big blue wet thing". Haha and yeah "What are rich, half-whit sons for?"

But If you haven't seen it here is a link to part one, and yeah I think you can figure it out from there!!

--> http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Rzanby11big&feature=related <--

Todah!! so watch it if you haven't seen it! or else...."Sailor man beware! With the money in the ground, theres murder in the air!"

Who's the sexiest woman alive?

thats kinda hard....ya know...cause i'm a chick...

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If you could attend any concert, what would it be?

either Relient K or Blink 182....

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If you were given a brand new yacht, what would you name it?

don't know why i'd want a yacht but I'd name it....Reggie!

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What's the oldest piece of clothing you still own and wear?

my sweats...i love them to death...

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-Title goes here_

Not sure what to write about tonight. Tired and boredddd outta my head. Making myself write everynight is hard when you have no idea what is running through your head. Birthday went well, I might make myself a cake later since I now have icing. But I tasted the icing and eww. Oh well....with icecream it should be good.

Listening to some Eddie Izzard while I write this and its hard to write while cracking up laughing ( http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MJyS6ov3j0g&playnext=1&list=PLA5D5A0BDEBC11772&index=4 )
Yeahhh funny stuff. I get to see my lover tomorrow, he has a birthday surprise for me and I can't wait. I love him sooooo much <3 and with that I am done for the night!

aren't u like 16 dating some 20 year old?

I'm 18...so it doesnt matter.

Ask me anything

Last day as a Seventeen Year Old...

So today is my birthday's eve... it was very eventful. Today at class, the tallest boy in our class had to raise the table because we had to use a little kid's room. He kept fiddling around at the back table trying to get comfy but never could. Finaly we all hear a big bang and a clank and he's folded up under the table trying to get it raised. After that everyone busts out laughing because we all could sit normally at the little kid tables and he couldn't.

After class let out we all headed outside, Rainbow socks, my sister, and I started up a good convo and laughed and yeah...after that my sister and I had to leave, I was dieing of thurst and hunger, still am. So I put my stuff in my truck and walked over to get something outta my mom's car before heading over to his car. I asked him "Do you got anything to drink in there??" "I got my water bottle want the rest of it?" Rainbow socks says. So I agree and gulp down a little bit. "Yeah...I might have mono though, that ok?" I shook my head "I don't care!" I gulped down more as he continued, "Mhm, with all the thing's I've done you'd think I'd have mono by now." I froze and spit out the water that I had in my mouth laughing my butt off. "What the *!?@?!?" I glared at him. "Thats reallllly gross..." I poped the top back on the bottle and threw it at him. He chuckled. "Well so? Forget it." As we both stood there laughing. He looked over at the little kids coming out of the doors and leaned in. "Just think, at midnight, sex is legal." Rainbow socks whispered and we laughed again. "Oh yeah? So is sneeking out partying apparently." I said back and started back over to my truck. We said our goodbyes and left.

Today was prob. one of the best one's outta this year. Nice to know I've got some friends here and there. But yeah, over the past year I guess you could say that its been pretty fun and pretty eff'd up too. Things this year have turned out pretty well and I'm happy. Not really lookin' forward to bein 18, since you can't really do a whole lot other than smoke, dip, and vote which aren't really fun. So....yeah...Life as an 18 year old here I come. Wonder what the first day will be like? Anyone?

Oh shout out to my loveee!!! You know who's you beez

Theres only one way, two say, those three words, four you....I love you <3

Cause you're simply the best cupcake I could have ever gotten, and you even have sprinkles and a candle on top!

To all of those who I've meet and hung out with, those I love and hate, whatever, whoever you happen to be, you're all pretty cool. <3

Good bye Seventeen, Hello Eighteen.

Baby please don't run away...

I know things get tough sometimes...they always do, but they get better with time right? I guess they do little by little. Its one of those things where if you had been there or I could have seen you things would be different...right?

Why does this always have to be so hard for me? Not quite sure why I can't just stand up and talk it out, or tell you how I feel, its just hard for me to say it. Its always been hard to say it. You've been there so many times and I'm glad...or I'd be a mess right now. Sometimes I wish we'd never met, sometimes I wish we would have waited to go out, but I'm glad we're together right now. Things would be a lifetime away then what they are now. But I'm glad I have you to help hold things steady.

Sometimes my world just crashes, and it sucks. We fight, but we make up before we go to sleep...makes me feel good that we fix things. You're the one who helps make me better, and I love that about you. So don't stop....please don't ever stop loveing me.

Who's the smartest person you know?

would have to be....Steven...who is to smart for his own good... XD

Ask me anything

What would be the best thing about being a vampire?

Being able to have enhanced senses.

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What's your favorite drink?

Virgin Stawberry Daiquiri

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Do you think your boyfriend will do anything for you?

I donno...

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Not quite sure...

Is there anything worse than being alone in the world, even though you're surrounded by lots of people? Most likely not. I feel that way sometimes, I hate being by myself...even though I tend to be that way a lot. Music and books seem to be my only release into the world, my only friends at times. Writing is like talking to a book I guess. I tend to do that a lot too, as you see here...

I know noone reads my blog, simply because I'd see some comments or some feedback about things if people did, ya know? Why follow someone on a blog anyway? Doesn't a blogger's life seem boring and paper thin? Not many thing's seem to happen if they are on all the time, and if they are here sparinly, they don't tend to write about what has been happening to them.

It's going to be a long night, fight after fight, I feel like things are headed down a deep dark drain in which never to return to the light of day. Ever feel like that? It sucks. I would know(saddly). Well whats wrong? Life falling appart, day by day a little box of hope is moved into a storage container and left there for good, along with fun, happiness, and pure joy among the least. Things left are re-organized for later use, such as hate, loneliness, shame, and hopelessness. (<-- thats a long word....)

Hm...if I were a spot of tea I'd boil and scream at the top of lungs, maybe then someone would hear my pain and pour themselves a cup of it, just so they could drink it down and find that it too makes them feel the same way. Hard, cold, and a bit watery. Oh, but you wouldn't dare stick a sugar cube to me would you? Yet you do, just to make the truth easier to swallow. Then there I sit, in a deep dark pit, lonely and frustrated. Wondering...listening...to all the things that go on outside, hearing things that I do not wish to hear, mad thoughts that I should not be thinking! Then burned by the acid of hate and disapproval! Shoved and pushed down a longer and even darker path. Then flushed away never to be seen again...What a mad world this is. Life inside a teapot, as the tea itself. -sigh-

Can you think of anyone you would want to go out with other than your current boyfriend?

Hm....yes, but I'm happy with Rob, so I don't plan on leaving him anytime soon. If this is who I think it is...then IM me...

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Does your boyfriend treat you like he should?

Yes he does, sometimes I think he spoils me too much XD

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Who and when was your first kiss?

Um....he know's who he is...lol and when i was 15.

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A couple of things...

The only thing I find sweeter than a cupcake?....That would have to be you with icing on top...and a dash of sprinkles!

Like a frog, you too, hop away from danger.

A unicorns horn maybe be pretty and pink, but watch out for the pointy end of the deal.

Like a star or the sun, a person like you; stands out, shines bright, and always is a light at the end of someone's dark tunnel.

No! You can't have that, for surely if I give it to you, you will shoot your eye out!

A zombie, in a short sense, is a reflection of yourself...only an oozing, maneating, hoarding version that you should beware of in the future. Just to let you know...

Mirrors are like cameras, only they have no flash, no memory card and only respond with live footage.

Books....portals to other worlds...great bearers of knowledge and life lessons....and possibly something completely and utterly different than what you expect.

Ipads....where computernerd bachelor's spend most of their free time.

Like a piece of popcorn, you are tastey, salty, and sometimes covered in caramel....

Sweetarts....half sweet, half tart, wholey frown proof.

Where does "You are 16 going on 17" apply anymore?

You know that feeling you get when someone's behind you? Then you look around and noone's there?? ...me too..!!!

What was your favorite toy to play with as a child?

That's a hard one....my big legos!!! or...Lambchop...or maybe my Teletubbies' doll....lol or was it Polly Pocket....I donno...

Ask me anything

What's one thing you own that you should probably throw away, but never will?

Old notes and pictures...I might get around to it sooner or later...

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1/1/11 at 11:11

Whats the most epic wish you can think of? Well I made mine this morning at 11:11 and it was pretty amazing. I didn't wish for no school, or snow, or anything thing like that. But I am thinking I'll get what I want. Why? Because I love him and he loves me. We get a long like best friends, we tell each other secrets, and make the best of what time we have together. Isn't that what the new year is all about?

One of my resolution's is to stick with him through thick and thin no matter what. To love him even when I'm mad at him, and to love him when he's mad at me. To take care of him when he's sick and spoil him rotten. I love you Robert Lewis and I want to spend forever with you <3